The Boy who Lives within
Friday, January 5, 2018
Take me #BeyondTheEdge with #AsusIndia
Sunday, December 13, 2015
I'm going North: Day1
I reached Kolkata to get a sense of freedom as my cellphone said, 'No Service'. I got connected again to the celluar network with a call from Ma. Sqeezed myself into the seat of AC39 and headed towards Baguihati.
Still with no Kolkata vibes. Baguihati looks like an oversized and overcrowded Agartala. The afternoon is boring. Slept for 2hours at Prasenjit Kaku's.
It is 9:30pm and I get the Kolkata Vibes. I am having a night drive across the city with my host family. Kolkata has a wide variety. I can see people on their nightly strolls, walking to local market squares, to tea stalls for daily ritual of Adda. At some localities there was barely anyone on the streets. To the North of the city, I saw many vagabonds going to sleep under the benches, bridges and overpasses probably with less or no food. And kilometers away we entered a Pizza Hut outlet to get an untimely pizza at 10:05pm. Ma and Me celebrated the Marriage Anniversary of Chandana pishi and Debu Kaku. Yes, its strange that I call Kaku because I feel calling Pisho makes it feel distant with a cake that we bought from Mio Amore(Monginis confectioneries changed to this) at 10:30pm. Its an unbelievable event to get a cake shop open at 10:30pm. It's 11:37pm and we reached the apartment of the host family.
Tuesday, July 28, 2015
Good Times
Tuesday, July 14, 2015
Song of the Silence
Monday, February 23, 2015
Renaissance
I am a single child. Born on 26th of June in the year 1995. I have an unique family, the best I guess, the idealistic: in every every manner. My grandpa was a college lecturer and most importantly, an artist. He is trained in psychology and he used to train people about 'how to train?' He is a master of 'idealistic' child psychology which I think now is far from what it is needed to be now ( I might be wrong about it). So He trained my father to train me to be an idealist. So accordingly I was kept away from all the rat-races, say whether it be a painting competition or the competition to get a good rank in the class. I was never taken to an Art School, a place where small kids were forced to draw, rather I would say copy, what their trainer thought would increase their ability to make beautiful sketches; and most importantly win more medals and trophies in sit-n-draw competitions. By the time all kids of my age was making sketches of fruit-baskets or village scenery, I was busy making sketches of F-16 fighter jets or 'Titanic' or might be an aircraft crashing into one of the Twin towers. So I didn't develop a single idea about how to draw a tree properly or just say sufficiently enough to look like a tree. But I had ideas, a lot of them. And I can boast that those were far better that those beautiful looking sketches of trees because my ugly & grotesque tree had a soul, it depicted an idea, rather than just being a tree.
Then years later, when I joined 'my school' that sculpted me into what I am now, my art-n-craft teacher introduced me to a mystic world, our art gallery, our 'Saradadevi Chitrashala'. I tried to paint, sketch and draw, but couldn't satisfy myself. Because I had more to say through my paintings and I was a less efficient artist. My 'Trees' had their soul, but were so grotesque that people even didn't consider looking into it. I was sad.
It happened to be my 9th standard in School. It was June. One day an e-bay package arrived home. I even didn't have an idea what e-bay was back at that time. Grandpa said it was for me from his daughter, my father's sister and of course my 'Pishi'. It turned out to be a digital point and shoot camera. This gift considerably changed the course of my creativity. I kind of gave up painting with colours, pencils and pens and started to paint with light. Soon I found out that I could express my thoughts somewhat in a way better than I could do with paintbrushes.
For last 4-5 years, I had completely gave up painting or sketching and turned to camera. But an unexpected event occurred. I met a girl, a good 'Friend' she turned out to be. It was her birthday two weeks back. So I was thinking and thinking and was perhaps over thinking what I could have gift her. Suddenly I was struck by the Idea that, 'Why not I give her a sketch book?' , So I gifted her a sketch book. It was all right until the moment I returned home. A strange question started disturbing me, 'Why have you given up something that was in your bloodline?' I couldn't wait longer. I scavenged through what colors and paintbrushes I was left with, and I made a painting, a recreation of one of my photograph taken. So it started.
So, it is now She who kinda a fuels me to paint, only by discussing painting and art-forms of other artists. Thanks.
Wednesday, September 10, 2014
Stuck
We take decisions; some brings about subtle changes, some causes casual changes and some causes catastrophe. It is The Decision, better to say 'A Choice' that changes a person's life.
Mary Kom, chose Boxing over Athletics; Usain Bolt chose Sprinting over Cricket. They chose rightly, and they got rewarded. It is only a 'Choice' that matters most.
I chose to give up, rather than making an apology. I could have chosen the second option and that could cause a change in my life: big or small. I preferred to not trust the person, and move on. But where can I move to? I am again stuck in this quicksand named 'conscience'. I found my fault for which I can't move-on. I lov'ed' her.
Loved. No it would be 'love'. Its eternal. But I ask myself, ' You hated her at that moment when you dumped her, how can u feel for her after a year?’ I have no answers. I am stuck, I need an answer for myself.
Sunday, August 31, 2014
Acknowledge to Control It
This Mind is sensitive. It takes note of everything that it sees, hears, feels, tastes and smells. Every single change in the environment gets noted, consciously or subconsciously. Suppose a new girl walks into the lecture hall, our mind takes a note. Even when the girl who sits beside me daily enters the hall the mind notes it. So what is the point of drawing this instance? In the previous case, the fluctuations in our brain waves are larger than the latter's. Why? The answer is simple. The girl is new and my mind needs to check her out to analysis her characteristics. In the latter case, the mind knows her and needn't check her out again.
This gives the solution to calm down The Mind. Whenever I am doing something The Mind registers the changes, the modifications, and the deletions. It is just an "Acknowledgement" that is necessary to cope with large number of changes the happens over the short time interval. If I tend not to acknowledge these changes, the RAM or say the buffer memory space gets crowded. And the thought process collapses.
With this process of Acknowledging the things those are happening around I can concentrate even in the most disturbing environments. I just used this process to calm me down and understand a topic from my physics that had been troubling me since last week.
Just "Acknowledge".

